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hey all

wow last time i posted was may alot has happened im now in ga.

iv been dealing with bad health issues enlarged heart fluid on the brain if you check my fa all the posts are there. basically im living with a time bomb that no one knows when it will blow.
doing alittle better working on apartment to live in moved from pa to md still trying to find other furs in md

i hate life

im not ignoreing anyone iv just had limted acess to the internet and been laying low and trying to not take advantage of anyone but iv hit rock bottom .

my dad caused me masive problems agian i ended up all most in jail he cost me my job , my life iv been staying in my car because i cant get anyone to help and now my car died so i cant even get to anyone who can help me if i even still have those friends.

im sorry everyone iv lost touch with i feel like i failed so bad 450 bucks to fix my car/house and i dont even have the cash i hate life im starting to loose hope i hada good jobbut my physco damn dad agian.

hey everyone

yes im still alive life's been crazy as hell but im still alive hey my b day is this Thursday dose any one wanna hang out Thursday or over the week end . first year anversey death of my mom on 3rd was hard first x mas with out my mom was hard new job is great tho

still alive and updates

everyone im still alive was just dealing with family issues and then 9/11 got hooked up with a cool group puppymill awareness day www.awarenessday.org great group of people and finally got one of my dream cars 95 ford crown vic p71 police package after the s10 totaled died

well isent this a shocker

well after a friend i was helping went nutty on me and attacked me back on may 31st. she did some massive damage to my right arm. had a psychopathic break down and this girl is a special ed teacher scary i know. well after attacking me then passing out she told me to leave i ended up with a house out of the deal still trying to furnish it but i got a house.

scared me alot today

so i have been having on and off sore muzzle weakness really tiredness. my labs been alerting and pawing at my muzzle for awhile now well i couldn't sleep last night tooth pain so bad i walked it hurt my face was swollen. well my lab alerted on me agian this after noon after being very weak i had friend take me to er well doc there hurt me alot tugged on tooth and all .


well i went to a friends dentest hour or so away took x ray tooth was very badly abscessed had to be pulled wel doc pulled it and the pus sack was so big it burst when he put it on tray and told me had i waited 1 more day it would have killed me when it ruptured.


it was so scared to see my life so close to ending because of a tooth and iv now relized how much closer this has made me and my lab.

shiloh my sar and police trained lab and my hero

damn my life

well after getting back from my mom memorial service back in jan my blazer was servilely damaged iv been fighting with the malls insurance company to no avail. now i need to come up with 300 bucks to get it back witch i dont have as im short funded right now due to haveing to help with my moms funereal expenses and hope there insurance company will reinberst me its a stressful situation with ever thing else going on i ended up in hospital few times with chest pains.

just found a song for how i feel lately

i just found this song and it fits so much with how i feel with losing my mom and a few very close friends
3 DOORS DOWN here by me





I hope you’re doing fine out there without me
‘Cause I’m not doing so good without you
The things I thought you’d never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood

So how could I have been so blind for all these years?
Guess I only see the truth through all this fear,
And living without you…

And everything I have in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.

I can’t take another day without you
‘Cause baby, I could never make it on my own
I’ve been waiting so long, just to hold you
And to be back in your arms where I belong

Sorry I can’t always find the words to say
But everything I’ve ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love…

And everything I have in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.

As the days grow long I see
That time is standing still for me
When you’re not here

Sorry I can’t always find the words to say
Everything I’ve ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love

And everything I have in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.

And everything I have in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.